I´ve never been the girl..

I've never been the girl you see in the corner, Nor am I am the girl you see in the center of the biggest crowd. I've never been the girl you see walking alone, Nor am I the girl you see with twenty guys surrounding her. I've never beenthe girl you hear about getting drunk at parties. I cover myself with depression, but let it out in anger and tears. You see my outside as being the hyper, talkative, outgoing typer. Yet my inside is screaming for help, quivering with fear, and bursting out with tears. The cuts and the scars just bring me more pain, but why do I do this to my body? I want to care about my well being. Care about the people who surround me! I want to be that girl you see walking with a smile, hand in hand with the boy she loves, but not just on the outside, the inside wants to be bursting with joy, laughing because something is really funny, not just hiding the true fear and terror.